Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Miss You Vahini....

The greatest loss to a mankind is loosing your loved ones and this year has prooved a great loss to me and my family.

i will always miss my sister in law who passed away late this year in a road accident... perhaps on one of the happiest turns of her life..

In Indian culture a sister in law shares a special relation with her brother in law... specially if the brother in law is yonger to her... the love of a mother and a sister comes together in her towards a brother in law.... its one unique relation which give a feel of both Love and respect towards your sister in law...

I lost my most beloved vahini this year in a road crash... If ever i could tell her anything it would be that .... vahini you will always be remembered in this family and we truly understand that you were required in the other world because someone there who runs this whole world is also starving for love and care.... we would never be upset on you going away... but yeah probably over you leaving us.... and after your being in the family we have a right to be a bit upset... you were the best person ever... and we miss you.... wish you a very happy new year....
I dont remember when i wrote on this blog the last time, but surely i thought a lot of time of coming to this small world of mine where when i write i feel i am speaking to myself, this is one place i write anything i want ..things i want to share with this world and things i dont want to as well.... a lot of people started blogging after me Eg... Mr Bacchan, Sharukh Khan etc etc... but the only thing that has made there blogs popular is probably they are more consistent in blogging...Ok ... Ok agreed a bit of their names must also have added to the populrity... but i need some booster to be consistent.... though it dosent make a big difference if i consistantly blog or no.... But certainly i dont like writing a blog at this particular time and one main reason for that is i am sitting in my office right now... and i would like to do a bit of work... if possible rather then writing a 2009 farewell blog... but i wish there would have been a bit of work to do as well....

And that reminds me that this is a 2009 farewell blog.... 1st Jan 2009 was just yesterday and its gonna be 1st Jan 2010 tommorow again.... thats how it feels like and thats how it has been for the past atleast 15 years.... with years passing like days and............ achievements.....?

Year after year we have been making new year resolutions and year after year we have been breaking them.... me too every year make a resolution... to know myself.. to know what i want... to know what I am doing And to try to know will what i am doing help me achieve what i want... and like every year 30 th dec, 2009 has an answer for me.... NO...

Afeter Relocating domestically, Loosing some of the most loved ones... gaining Some new friends and even loosing some even before they were friends.... somewhere I feel sorry for the year passing by so fruiteless and so ungaining....

It has been years now that i dont celebrate year end with a party and prefer to be working because i dont want to start my new year, lost minded or trapped in a room which is full of people who have lost their minds and vision (in the cloud of smokes) ... i would rather prefer to work or sit calmly with my loved ones when a new year welcomes me with new challanges and opportunities (everyone welcomes new year ...but a very few realise that the year is equally eager to welcome you... and forget to accept the welcome...) but year 2009 leaves me particularly with a pathetic feeling.... I dont want to let this year go and only if it stays a few more days and i try to achieve something.... but somewhere there is a feeling that the end of the year might bring goodness and hope .... and then i think how can i blame the year, in other words blame time for me not making a good use of it.... 2008 welcomed me with the same warmth of 2007 and so would 2010 .... its me who needs to identify what time offers me... and accept it at the right time...

The one lesson i learnt from 2009 is ... one has to be very careful in making his choices... its your choice that will create your personality. And one wrong choice will change your personality dramatically.... and i have learnt it a hard way.... So however good or bad, 2009 has thought me some great lessons of life.... I have met a lot of people and as i have already said ... a part of my proffession ( naaa not the hotels... thats just my job... atleats these days..) is studying people.. this year like the last has given me an opportunity to meet a lot of people and study them... though this cant change my habit of trusting people and getting to close to them.. just to get hurt sooner of later (and i dont regret it.. not any more). I got an opportunity to learn (a bit) of technicalities of my job... which i hope will help me in future... and yes... there is one advantage of having a bad year ... you are filled with new energies and exctement to welcome the new year... Though with the same excitement and energy i would like to wish an old passing friend a goodbye... and thank him for everything....

Wish you all a very happy new year.. and may the new year bring you all a lot of knowledge, happines, joy, health and wealth....